XEYR ALEXANDRIA: Projek Ilmiah itu apa?

Tatkala aku bersuka ria menatap TV di ruang tamu rumah.

Tatkala itu satu perasaan timbul tidak semena seperti mencemburui kesenangan aku pada saat itu.

Aku dihantui perasaan itu sampaikan berjuta monolog bermain di dalam minda dan akhirnya -----

menjerumuskan aku ke sini * tadaaaaaaaaaaada *

Sebenarnya bukan cuma satu perasaan yang muncul di benak pemikiran aku tetapi -- berjuta perasaan.
Dan perasaan dimaksudkan aku adalah kerisauan dan ketidaktahuan-lah-nak-gambarkan-bagaimana.
Terhadap apa?

bukan lagi kisah cinta.
tapi
kisah Projek Ilmiah aku sebagai pelajar tahun akhir.

Aku kusut.
Aku bingung.
Aku serabut.
Aku termenung.
Aku sambung kusut.
Aku kutip bingung.
Aku kelam kabut.

Walau realiti nya aku bertopengkan wajah tenang setenang air di kali. ( eh ? betul kah peribahasa ni?)
Aku mengaku aku banyak komplen (complain) dan banyak meluahkan this-never-ending-feeling berbanding aku cuba untuk mengatasi dan mencantas menangkas serta menawan masalah yang aku hadapi.

But who cares.

Alkisahnya.
Aku punya projek ilmiah a.k.a THESIS (or whatever you call it)
bertajuk kan sesuatu yang aku tak minat.
Dan aku tak da perasaan sikit pun untuk meneruskan kajian itu.
Hal ini merupakan salah satu sebab kenapa benda tu menghantui aku----- sampai ke rumah.

I was like ' hello thesis can we stay apart and get separated for a while until i come back to UKM?"
And that brat ( thesis) answered "NO. I WONT LET YOU GO"

*next chapter*

I still remember one of the most respectful and great ex-engineer/Professor from India came to our university. I was one of the student who has been selected by my lecturer to have some short-meeting or kind of sharing-experience-moment with that genius Prof.

He said to me:

"You know what is engineer means?"

" Engineer creates thing. Engineer innovate things. Engineer makes life easier. We make new cool things"

" Isn't it exciting?"

And I was loike " ohh okay i know that "

Then he continue talking about science-things.

"You know what all the science people do? They only study and learn and understand what already exist in this world. They explore the nature of life."

"Did you see the differences? Which one is much more interesting? Learning existing fact or creating and giving an idea of the new thing?"

And yes. I can't deny his words and I clearly saw his passion towards this engineering field. Though his look was quite-getting-older but his spirit overtook his age. What about me? Hmm still thinking of what is so exciting to be in this - err - don't wanna say what it is.